I know what I’m thinking is so so wrong and really terrible and I wish it could stop but here they are:
My moms best friend is also her boss but they are very close. Which would also make me (F16) close to their family as well. We stay over at their house often and have gone on vacation together. I’ve known them since I was 6.
Her husband, let’s call him Jake, looks at me a lot. Ever since I started puberty, my breasts have been pretty big. I think I have a okay body. It’s kind of an hourglass with 34DD. He’s 37. He’s not the worst looking and lately, it doesn’t really bother me that he looks anymore. Recently, I’ve worn push up bra’s and v-necks whenever I go over to their house.
Anyways, our families kind of drifted a bit because of quarantine but we reconnected this past week. I spent some time with Jake and we’ve gotten a little closer. He stands pretty close to me.
The worst part about it is that I can’t stop thinking about fucking him. I’ve always been into 30-40 year old celebrities/famous people and not really into famous people my age-ish. I’ve always pretty much had a daddy kink but it’s been acting up lately. I can’t stop thinking stuff like: what if he chokes me as he’s ramming his dick into me? what if he pulls on my hair as he’s taking me from behind? what if he cums all over my face? what if he slaps me and makes me call him daddy? I feel so guilty for thinking these things but they’re thinks that I want.
Any advice? I know it’s awful on my side but please please do be respectful or give constructive criticism. Sorry, thanks.