So, I'm a senior in high school, and I don't know if it's the sudden transition that happened last year from in-school to online, but I'm sure, just like many other students, my mental health has dropped like it never has. I struggled a lot with depression and suicidal ideation a lot in middle school, but I did get a hang of it after 8th grade. I started to notice my mental health start to drop sometime during early November, but all I could do was brush it off because I was struggling with my schoolwork. As time went on, my mental got worse and worse. I'm basically failing most of my classes, honestly, which isn't like me, considering I always did well in school. Now, it's late February and I graduate in May and I'm slowly starting to get my grades up. Earlier today, my mom found out that I lied to her about passing a class I took 2 years ago, and called me a slur of names. Now, my mental health is low, but after this, I think I've had it. Living in this house, growing up in it is very toxic and not good at all for my mental state. I don't think I'll do anything dumb, but I did reach out to a friend in case for support. I guess everything just comes crashing down, I would've told her but she's very strict with grades. Like, she'd beat my ass (as still will if I told her) if I got 90s on my test. I understand that bad grades=punishment but at this point, I think it's insane. Anyways, she and my counselor had a meeting and they, obviously, went over my bad grades that I had gotten towards the last semester. She comes home, calls me more names that I will not being saying because I will breakdown if I do, keeps saying "oh your counselor called you a fucking liar too! all you do is fucking lie!" which i wouldn't have to if you didn't terrify me but go off ig. she takes my phone (which i wiped cause i had a feeling) and I'm banned from my room (she changed my lock and has the key). She says "I hope you fucking know that after school, you're not going anywhere. You're staying here and you're doing your classes online. I'm fucking done with you." yada yada yada, you get the point. I most definitely am leaving right after graduation, I'm dropping everyone and everything and going. I'm just about ready to run away or something, idk im just ranting now. I just hate it here. I can't stay in this house anymore, i gotta move.