When I was 9 one of my moms friends son who was 16 made me preform oral on him when I didn’t want to so he shove his genitals in my mouth , all I remember was crying and wondering when it will stop , I had managed escaping his room before he could rape me . Two weeks later my mom and abusive dad split up and we had went to go live at her other friends house I stayed there for 4 months till February when my mom met my now stepdad they fell for each other and got a apartment together and it was going great ...till they started arguing and he get drunk and beat my mom and throw things at me and call me a pig and how useless I was I saw my dad on the weekends and told him about how rude my stepdad was so the next time my dad saw my stepdad he had gotten into a fight which left my stepdad very hurtafter that my mom and us moved away with my stepdad! To a small town in the middle of no where which was hours away from my dad . There was so many fights with my mom and stepdad that I’m surprised she’s alive , it went on all year I had zero friends and no family so it was lonely I had only had my sister we had fun together until I Turned 11 and it was 2 days after my 11th birthday I remember waking up with pressure on top of me and the smell of Jack Daniels and I had a horrible pain in my private zone . It was my stepdad he was rapping me and I was crying and trying to move but I couldn’t, he kept on telling me how much I look like my mother And how pretty I am . Then he got off and told me to take a shower in the morning which I stayed in bed all day and didn’t get up till it was dinner and I ate in my room I remember I couldn’t walk or talk right I couldn’t stop crying when I was alone and when he hugs me he always drags he hand way to far down and it’s scares me I’m now 15 and I had tried committing suicide but I didn’t die and I had to make an excuse of why they found me passed on on the kitchen floor I took pills but I guess I didn’t take enough Im graduating early and I’m ready to move out but I have no connections so I’m waiting to move out when I’m 18 and get away from him I love my mom and my sister but my sister is older and she going to be gone before me and I’m scared I don’t know if I’ll ever tell them of what happened to me I only have one friend and she’s 12 she only knows of how abusive he is I just want to be a happy normal 15 year old.