i dated this guy for six months who used to get cross faded and tell me all of my little imperfections. I didn't know it at the time, but he was mentally and emotionally abusing me to the point of where i ended up blaming every problem that happened to him on me and i constantly felt guilty for stuff that I didn't even have anything to do with. I was 14 at the time. Every thing he said to me, all the awful things about my body and my "bland" personality, i just kind of believed it because he loved me right? Why would someone lie about that?? The last night before i had to move, he begged me to sneak out to his friends house which I dumbly agreed to. It started out fine but he started doing things i didn't want him to and I kept repeatedly telling him to stop. He said that it was fine and i would like it and "you wanna make me happy don't you?" I closed my eyes and tried not to cry while he forced my legs apart and performed oral that I never wanted. I'm pretty sure it was classified as rape, correct me if i'm wrong but then he told the whole school that i wanted it and I was too lazy to give him anything in return!! Everyone called me slutty and no one knows the real story except for 3 other kids. The kicker is he was cheating on me the whole time! with his EX!!! He only told me the day of the breakup.. I honestly don't know what to do or how to feel anymore. Its almost gonna be the 1 year anniversary and i'm dreading having to remember everything he did to me.