it'll take me a long time to write this so I might not finish it. but if ur seeing this, then I've finished it(or had the will to).I'm 12 turning 13 and I'm starting to realize that life isn't perfect frilly pink roses or rainbows and sprinkles. as much as people try to make it sound like that, it's rlly not. life is a burden. it's a struggle to live, and I've seen enough depressed college student videos and enough videos about the meaning of life to extract one meaning behind them. you thought you'd get some inspirational crap huh?:). nope, still haven't pulled a meaning behind them.I've been questioning lots of things lately like for example my sexuality. here is where I've gone with that train of thought:I'm straight.no, I'm bisexual cuz Clairo is so fucking cute.nah I'm pansexual.wait no...I'm non binary cuz I rlly don't like being called she/her nor he/him. wait no...I'm still questioninghold up. I'm lesbian.WTF AM I???or I've been questioning the universe and dimensions. like why r we here? ok now I'm confused. idk myself anymore. idk what I'm doing. idk who I am. ik what I'm gonna do in life. but idk how to tell my parents.probably not gonna post dis, but fuck it ya know?