I’m not sure how to say this without sounding horrible. I’ll let it pour out. my boyfriend is great. He’s nice and sweet and I know he loves me. He’s hardworking, he’s smart... but I don’t know that he loves me the way I want to be loved. This is so stupid and cliche but I want someone who... when he looks at me, I know he loves me. I want to feel it. Sure, I know my boyfriend loves me. He tells me all the time and I think his way of showing love is just by expressing it. But when he looks at me, I don’t feel it. I’m not a super romantic person - honestly. Butttt.... I would like to feel like our relationship is somewhat romantic. And truthfully, it’s just not. He’s a funny guy and he’s really cool... but he’s like a robot. I don’t feel passion with him. Maybe I won’t ever feel passion with anyone. I’m starting to believe that maybe we don’t ever find someone who we have true passion for. It makes me upset. I want that passion.and even if I did break up with him, I know that if I found someone else later in my life, the exciting love you have at the beginning won’t last. How screwed up is that? For me to want that everyday... when it’s not reality. I want to feel loved. what’s worse? Why do I even want to feel loved? Like, why does it matter? Why do I care? it’s sick because I think about this at least once a day. About how maybe one day someone will really love me. Like, look at me and think, “I really love her.”i shouldn’t even care but I do. I don’t want to want it. I’m sorry. This was so sloppy and I’ve probably misspelled several things. I’m just typing what my brain spits out.