So as my title says my world has drastically changed. I went from being happily married with a healthly little girl and a baby on the way to a broken, beaten down woman in just 6 months. I got divorced because my ex was abusive. I wasn't upset because I knew it was what I needed to do for myself and my babies. But just one thing after another has stacked on top of each other. My one daughter is healthy and I am grateful. But my other baby girl who came into this world has had to fight for her life. She's had 3 surgeries and is now on a ventilator. My whole world has been flipped upside down. Thanks to the divorce so many people have left me. My own family doesn't even talk to me any more. I have no friends and I don't think i will ever have friends again. Because when she comes home I won't be able to leave the house. All the hiking, bike riding, going to the park or pool, even playing in the yard will no longer happen like it used to because she will have the ventilator. My ex throws in my face I won't be able to continue my schooling and get my degree and I will never be able to date or have a normal life because of my youngest child. Hes constantly telling me I will be alone and I deserve it. I am hurting so bad and depressed. Because I have a hard time cooping with change and it is all so much so quickly. I hate myself to be honest. I know its a blessing she is alive most children don't survive with what she's gone threw. I wouldnt change any of what I am going threw if it means she gets a chance at some sort of life. I don't regret any decisions I have made when it comes to her. I'm just struggling with all the changes and having no one to talk to.