If you were engaged and you fiance has voiced over and over again how insecure it makes them feel the fact you are looking at porn. Would you change what is making your supposed love of you life insecure and build her up instead of putting that focus on the girls on your phone? Just confused how I would do anything to make him feel comfortable but yet this one thing that makes it 100 times harder to not hate myself in everyway (and I do battle with depression, body dismorphia and an eating disorder that I am still struggling with) why is it so hard to just turn that attention towards the one you love because when it feels like your wanted when your so damaged it means the world. No one will probably read this but needed to get this out of my head. If you did read this thank you but please don't be mean I'm just broken and confused.