So... i really need some response to this :( I have been in a relationship for an year now. The person is really understanding but things are going up and down like....i have been accustomed to staying alone with my mother having no siblings and my father working abroad . Now... i feel because i have been staying alone all these years and I personally got so habituated to it that i like staying alone. I can’t continuously be .. idk attached? To anybody ... like not even my parents. Now relationship works from two sides ... i like that person a lotttt ... but sometimes i go dry during the conversation ... and person being understanding ... quite understands that. but that can’t happen all the time right ... i made the person feel as if they are begging for my attention and I feel probably took them for granted though i never intended to do that. And i feel extremely guilty about it . Its my nature and I can’t keep myself too attached to anybody and at the same time i am feeling super guilty for hurting the person i love unintentionally. Things are not the same now. The person understands and is still not bad to me or anything but stilll things are not same. I don’t know how to fix this 😭

So... i really need some response to this :( I have been in a relationship for an year now. The person is really understanding but things are going up and down like....i have been accustomed to staying alone with my mother having no siblings and my father working abroad . Now... i feel because i have been staying alone all these years and I personally got so habituated to it that i like staying alone. I can’t continuously be .. idk attached? To anybody ... like not even my parents. Now relationship works from two sides ... i like that person a lotttt ... but sometimes i go dry during the conversation ... and person being understanding ... quite understands that. but that can’t happen all the time right ... i made the person feel as if they are begging for my attention and I feel probably took them for granted though i never intended to do that. And i feel extremely guilty about it . Its my nature and I can’t keep myself too attached to anybody and at the same time i am feeling super guilty for hurting the person i love unintentionally. Things are not the same now. The person understands and is still not bad to me or anything but stilll things are not same. I don’t know how to fix this 😭

I am also in similar situation like you. My father is no more. And Me and mumma are staying alone here as my sister got married. Me and My boyfriend know each other from past 15 years almost. And we both are best friends and from past 7-8 years we are dating. And i have same problem of communicating things. I even never msg him first after such years and he never complains. But as soon you will start to value him and wanting him in your life this will change you. You will also feel empty when you don't talk to him. And he will get habitual. You will also start associating his happiness and admiring those beautiful conversations. Take some time and talk to him about this. If he smiles at you than he loves you and will don't want to change you too. So chill !

I am also in similar situation like you. My father is no more. And Me and mumma are staying alone here as my sister got married. Me and My boyfriend know each other from past 15 years almost. And we both are best friends and from past 7-8 years we are dating. And i have same problem of communicating things. I even never msg him first after such years and he never complains. But as soon you will start to value him and wanting him in your life this will change you. You will also feel empty when you don't talk to him. And he will get habitual. You will also start associating his happiness and admiring those beautiful conversations. Take some time and talk to him about this. If he smiles at you than he loves you and will don't want to change you too. So chill !