New Year’s Eve my parents went to one of my aunts and uncle‘s house for the evening. After they left one of my cousin showed up at our house. He’s 19 in college and I just turned 14. We watched TV for a while then he walked over to my dads liquor cabinet and ask if we could celebrate the New Year so I said why not. I have never drank so after we had the first one I got a little silly. Then he asked if we had any playing cards so I got some and he taught me how to play a poker game. All along we had been drinking then he joked about we should play a game of strip poker so I went along. I had gotten pretty drunk so after about a half an hour I was down to my bra and panties and he was down to his underwear and T-shirt. I lost the next game so off came my bra. I won the next game so he said I had my choice of what he had to takeoff. I told him his underwear. He stood up took them off then I was totally embarrassed because I saw him hard as a rock. Then without saying a word he took me by the hand pulling me toward the sofa. I had never done anything more than kiss guys. We were still standing up then he started playing with my tiny boob and kissing me. Then he pushed me down on the sofa getting between my legs. He was still kissing me and playing with my boob but I could feel his thing against my panties. Then he reached down slide my panties to the side starting it in me. I told him he shouldn’t be doing that but was so drunk I just relaxed while he got it all the way in. He had sex with me for a while then told me to get ready. Before I could say anything he started doing his thing then my whole body started shaking. I grabbed onto him and just held on until he had finished. He ask me If I had always done that then I told him it was the first time I’d ever done anything. He said he was surprised because I had known exactly what to do and hadn’t said anything about it being my first time. He told me to go to the bathroom and clean up. It was obvious what he had done to make me have the reaction I had. I went back and he wanted to know if I was OK and I told him I was fine. We talked a little about what had happened got dressed then spent the rest of the time until midnight watching TV. He left once the new year came in and I hurriedly straighten things up so my parents wouldn’t know we had been drinking then went to bed before they could get home. Now I’m scared because I haven’t had a period this month so I think he might have gotten me pregnant. I got my last period the 14th of December and it’s now the 19th of January. It should have come around the 11th or 12th. I need to talk to him to see what we need to do.