Being a poor guy from childhood I was constantly humiliated by rich peers in school and college. I am from India. My sad story starts from KOTA. Unable to crack IIT; I was a huge dissapointment to my parents because they had invested a huge amount on me. After failing in IIT I realised how coaching institutes fool you. They uncessarily recommend absurd books and solve difficult questions only to boost their ego and to show how big a fool you are. After dropping one year I was able to make through a decent college. The four years were hell. Tried to blend in with friends majority of whom were rich who humiliated me everytime they got a chance. Ran around to get certificates in extra curricular activities to add to CV which served for no purpose during recruitment. Finally got a job in small company. Dissatisfied with salary left the job after 1 year to prepare for government jobs. Now due the policies of the government vacancies are getting reduced. Everything is getting privatised. 4 years have passed and still now I have not to cracked any exam. I started to learn coding and wanted to try my luck in bangalore to get an IT job but sadly the pandemic ruined my plan. I tried to earn from stock market but lost about 1 lac of my saved money. Started a youtube and instagram channel but not successful. Now I have only 1 or 2 attempts left for government exams. Dont know what will happen in future. Tried in private companies they are not willing to take me due to huge gap of 4 years. Also my family is going through financial crisis. My father is retired. We can hardly meet our basic needs. So it is impossible to ask them any money to start business. Also my father doesnt have any agricultural land in village or else I would have started farming in village. My uncles have taken over the lands unlawfully. My future seems dark and bleak. I dont know what to do. I am out of ideas.