Sometimes, I feel so out of place. I don't want to put myself out there but yes, I have a great group of friends, a fair share of lovers and a loving family. Downside is, I have to leave between countries once every 3-4 years. On top of that I have been on 2 exchange trips so I'm barely in one place. Not many of you get to experience this and many of you guys probably imagine this to be like super cool.
It's really not.
I can never have a stable relationships, I have barely no strong relationships with my friends. Only shallow ones some may say. It hurts me so much, and sometimes I feel I've become someone don't even know anymore. Like I have to change myself, change my personality to better fit others, even though deep down I hate it. When I think I'm falling in love, I soon realise that they just like me for my body and figure that it would be no strings since day one, because I have to leave the country at some point. It's painful, traumatising and worst of all, nobody gets it. I'm sitting in my room right now, going through another heartbreak and what was supposed to be a getaway was honestly one of the worse road trips of my life. I don't even know who I am anymore.