I just feel like, no matter what I do, my destiny is loneliness. I have almost no friends, and the little friends I have often plan things without even telling me, I find out only when they post about it on Instagram. Birthday parties? No. Trips? Don't even think about it.Sometimes I think even my girlfriend spends more time with other people than with me. And I'm here wondering, is it really worth it? Would I get more attention if I just killed myself, or would people pay no attention to that either?