I try to be positive when things turn bad. As a kid I learned that the only person who would ever love or care for me was going to be me. My dad and his entire family never liked me and always favoured my sibs over me. I was the black sheep of the family. Additionaly, I was dumb, ugly and fat too! My siblings would make fun of me! My parent and friends (so called) made fun of me! Ppl I didn't even know would pass by saying shit to me! I thought what's the point in living....so I did what anyone would n starting cutting....felt goodI thought that maybe things would change someday! It's been 14 years! I had my ups but I still feel lonely n insecure!