Not happily ever after

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I dislike myself. I know I shouldn't but I do. I'm stuck in a marriage that doesn't make me happy. I settled because I didn't want to be alone. He doesn't want to work so I work. He doesn't clean around the house. He sleeps til 3pm everyday. Doesn't help me with our kids. We never do anything together. I just hate it here. I wanna leave but my kids would be hurt. Part of me even thought about hurting myself so that he would have to step up and be a man but I don't want to put me kids in a bad situation if he doesn't. I know this is my fault but I don't know what to do.