From the age of 4 I've wanted to be a writer. I loved reading books as a kid and had so many great ideas for stories, in school my teachers would always say how impressive my descriptive and creative writing was, I love being able to create different universes just with words.
I've struggled with self esteem issues for a while, and while I lost faith in every other ability I thought I had, I never once doubted my dream of becoming an author. Until yesterday. I've been posting stories on wattpad for about a year now, and I finally worked up the courage to show my mum. She never usually gives me much encouragement, she never says she's proud of me and never seems to realise how I feel about anything, so this was a big step. I felt so confident and hopeful that she might see that I'm good at something. Except she didn't. She said my stories were too melodramatic and that I obviously didn't understand what I was writing about, which hurt me because I had been writing about my own experiences with various mental health issues, so how could I not understand it? She said I had talent but I had a long way to go before it was worth publishing anything.
Now I just feel so stupid and childish. I thought I was good at something and it turns out I wasn't. It's been the only thing I've never given up on since I was a child, and my mum crushed it with one conversation. I feel so lost now, I don't really know what to do with my life any more. Thank you for taking the time to read this, I know it's not much compared to what other people are writing about on this website but I really feel like I've lost a fundamental part of my hopes and dreams through what she said. I'd be really grateful if anyone knows more about professional writing and could give me some tips.