I just wrote my first suicide note. I’m not really planning on hurting myself or dying, but I feel empty and I think quite often of different ways I could die. I’m just tired of dealing with everything that comes with being alive in my specific life, and my mental health issues. I turned 18 three days ago and I feel nothing. Some days are fine, but I always return to this awful state of mind and ruin everything I work for. I want to find solutions but it’s so long and difficult for me and everyone just gives me shit about it when they don’t even know what they’re talking about. I don’t want anything in particular from this aside from being able to write what I want and have other people see it so that I can feel like someone cares even if they don’t.