This life has nothing to offer me, though I am too much of a coward to take my own life. I have tried everything to elevate the numbness, though nothing works. I feel hopeless; I am stuck in a cycle and I feel as if nothing will get better, despite what people will continuously preach. Talking to people, even friends and family, is now a tiring task. And I can no longer find a reason to get out of bed, other than the fear of letting my parents down. The ideation of release is so tempting, though I can't do it; I am too scared to kill myself.