I’ve watched my life break infront of my eyes every goddamn time i have fixed it. Me. Not anyone else. Because they simply wont. Either i fix it or i lose it. Recently I’ve lost it. I am watching it fall apart once again, but i feel nothing. I am simply letting nature run it’s course. I am not hurt, not affected. Quite numb if i’m being honest. I don’t feel the pain or the sadness i should, i know it is affecting me but I can’t feel it. I’m losing everything and i’m not going to stop ot from going this time.