Everyone is leaving me, at least it feels like it. Some is my family I'm not aloud to speak to and I have lost a lot of friends from stupid things throughout the years. People come to me with their problems like feeling suicidal and cutting and as much as I appreciate it I don't want them coming to me about it anymore, it's a lot of weight to carry around especially when your two best friends say it. In fact those I have drifted away from them a bit as well. No one messages me and the friends I do have left don't feel like friends anymore. I have had a few family issues that have impacted me a lot and no one has been there for me and I'm loosing hope bit by bit. But I don't want to die I just want to feel complete again. I can't take it every time I cry I feel numb and stupid. It hurts a lot.