i feel so sad and empty but ive got no reason to be, i have a loving family and friends that make me laugh. so.. why do i feel like this. i think the problem is me. i let my insecurities get to me. nobody seems to know because im known as this bubbly fun kid that seems to be happy all the time, but not always. i cant say im happy, so much stuff could be better in my life but im not sad either because theres no reason to be sad. i would be this happy kid that always laughs most of the time but there’s those days where... feel numb and emotionless. i dont smile, i dont cry, i dont know how to feel its like im just a walking talking statue with a monotone voice. i cant tell anyone because theyll just give me a lecture and make me feel bad at myself im ugly fat im disgusting. i cant do anything right, i just want someone to give me a hug and tell me everything i need to hear. but im happy to say there’s one thing that keeps me moving, music more specifically one direction. it sounds dumb but theyre the only ones who can make me genuinely laugh these days. even though theyll never know me i wish i could tell them how much theyve helped me. but ill always be another girl in the crowd. i dont know what id be without them. i can never hurt myself becaude in a coward so i just act like i dont care, cause at the end of the day, nothing in my life is gonna change..