I am fucking done. I am done trying to be some person everyone else expects me to be. I can't take the fake smiles and the plastic personalities everyone puts on around me. I'm not stupid. I sense the energy shift and it makes me so fucking anxious because I don't know what is going to happen next. I hate letting people down but at the same time I am so sick of fucking people walking all over me and using me to their full advantage. I am not a play thing. I am not a therapist. I am not your knight and shinning armor. I can't fight your battles for you. I can't fix you. You need to fix yourself while receiving my support at the same time. I am not a saving grace; I myself am very toxic. I still have my own shit to work on and I can't seem to find the time or peace to do so. I have too many people calling my name and expecting me to be there for them as soon as I can.Yet, when I want the same thing I don't get it. I learned to stop asking for help because when I do; I don't get it. And the minute I want to talk about how I feel I am drowned out or accused of wanting to start an argument. I just want to run away from everyone and everything. I want to go somewhere and all hear is the chirping of wild birds or the wild waves crashing against the sea shore. I want to go to a place where I don't have to worry about other people or their problems. I want freedom.