Tw: mention of self harmI spent 10 years of my childhood and teenage years self harming. I carry around bad scars on my arm and I can't remember what it feels like to be in public in summer and feel sun on my arms. I would say I have been self harm free for over 2 years. I have no one to tell in my life that at 25 years old, I have started self harming again. I don't have anyone to tell anything too, just like how I felt in childhood. I just wanted someone to know, however I hate leaving things with a bad ending......so right now, from where I am, I can see a yellow flower, and it makes me feel safe and ok for the moment. I just wanted my secret to still be a secret but not really.. yknow?