TW// extreme suicidal thoughts, mostly a vent because i’m too afraid to go through with it
I’m just done. i feel like no matter what she’s going to come back and i can’t escape it i’m just better off killing myself. i just want to be released from this and watch her fucking suffer knowing it’s all her fault. it’s all her fault. when i’m dead and gone i hope she realizes that it’s her fault for being such a whore. the only reason i haven’t slit my throat is because i know he would be sad. our relationship is dwindling though, and i’m having a hard time keeping myself from relapsing. if he breaks up with my the first thing i’m doing is grabbing my knife and slitting my throat.