were both 17 and finishing school this year. We both live in Ireland and we’ve been dating for nearly 2 years. I want to move to my family’s place in Indonesia for a year or two and she wants to move to New York for a year. I have bad anxiety and big city’s scare me a lot but she’s kind of adamant on moving there. I don’t want this to end I love her so much but in New York it’s be panic attack after panic attack. It’s been her dream to live there for a few years now. I don’t know what to do and I don’t want to do distance. She knows where I stand and I know where she does. She’s either going to be my wife or the biggest heartbreak of my life. I know not many people care and it’s a dumb problem to have compared to everyone else on here but I just needed to open up a bit. Thank you to anyone who reads this.