smile. just smile. having a bad day? just smile. this is what we have been taught. dont cry. dont be sad. dont. but it’s gotten to the point where smiling is something you fake or hate doing. it sucks. it does. we are her for you. we will listen and help you. liars. all you did was continue to make plans and play video games right in front of me. but im fine. its the only thing i can be really. i cant be depressed because some people have it worse than me. i cant have adhd because other people dont focus either. i cant. stop telling us to write a list on all of the things we are grateful for. what does that do? tell us to write the endless list of things that we are not grateful for. but im fine. if you are depressed then you are just being dramatic and selfish. no you’re not. im not myself anymore. i am not the happy person i used to be. that is a reason to be dramatic and selfish. because we noticed that it was happening. the changes. in ourselves. in everything. but we ignored it or else we wouldn’t be the person mother wanted us to be. she wanted us to be the happiest and smartest kid. so i tried it. but it has gotten to the point where it is not encouraging but pressuring. i am doing my best. but not good enough. never will be. funny how our minds do this to us purposely. funny.