can’t seem to manage all my life responsibilities lately. all i ever do is work but never get to the end of anything and am losing confidence in my ability to succeed and more and more certain that it doesn't really matter to anyone if i continue getting up every morning and anonymously laboring away. just have the feeling i am waiting for some indefinite waiting period to end so something else can start, but there is nothing else. maybe i will move again to avoid feeling this way for as long as that works. i have lost contact with my friends or can’t find the energy to keep up with them. i am not enjoying anything i should. i feel like food is just pills i’m swallowing.