i’m so sick of crying every night wishing i wouldn’t wake up the next morning and then crying in the morning because i woke up. i just want the pain to stop. there’s nothing for me in this world i have no reason to be here no one would care if i went. when my first attempt failed i was ok and appreciated small things like the sunset but now i wish it worked i just can’t carry on feeling this way for any longer it’s so hard to hang on. i just want to feel anything other than numbness and pain for a while i just want it all to hurry up and end i can’t stand being here anymore it’s so draining and painful.