I'm feeling so low right now. My heart is so heavy and full.i dont know what to do. it feels like my head is gonna burst. i feel so lonely and sad like i don't have anyone in this world. i cannot stop crying.. i just wanna cry till the point where i cannot cry anymore.. but i cannot as my mother is asleep next to me ..i wanna scream at the top of my voice and not care about anyone.i just wanna go someplace far from here from everyone and everything and not come back for a long long time. tears are rolling down my cheeks as I'm writing this and they are not stopping anytime soon. it's just so hurtful when the people you care about dont care about you dont care about your feelings.. they just leave you like an option. this feeling is the worst when no one cares about you. i have to cover my mouth and cry otherwise my mom will wake up. but i just wanna cry bcoz im so full i cannot take anymore pain. My head is heavy and my eyes are going numb.