i have one week until my next therapy appointment. I will then tell my parents how absolutely mentally unstable I've become. I am terrified, but I plan to go to a psych ward. I can't keep hiding my feelings and if I don't get help I'll just kill myself. What the hell am I supposed to feel like right now? The only thing I feel is hope that my parents will even care..I'm failing my college courses and I still can't get myself to care even a little bit about the actual grade or course. I only care because I don't want to get yelled at or hurt. I don't know what to do anymore. I hope my friends don't hate me for being so fucked.