Sometimes you have something missing in your life. You know what it is and you try to fill it with the correct things or what you think is the correct things but they don't always fit. It's like the kid in the doctor's office playing with the toys in the waiting room. You cant make the square fit in the circle. I think alot of us try to do the same thing with people in our lives. Even tho we know they don't fit, if we're desperate enough and we want it bad enough, we try.