I can't stop lying... Its to the point where I make up fake stories and fake lies. My parents are tired of my lying. but I can't stop.For one reason, I'm afraid to be hit...My dad has hit me mutiple times before and I haven't change. Isn't that weird? I dont understand how I get hurt by my father because of lying and still continue to not tell the truth.What the fuck is wrong with me.....Its twisted and I hate how they have to bring fucking god and religion into it.I know that I deserve punishment But I cant help and wonder do I deserve to be abused by words and hands? Last time I lied, was today, I lied about eating a candy bar.....Of course since I'm the only child, im only lying to myself....They know Im dealing with an eating disorder but they cant seem to face it....I don't know what to do?I dont know how to stop lying.I'm ruining my parents life.I'm ruining my own life.

I can't stop lying...Its to the point where I make up fake stories and fake lies. My parents are tired of my lying. but I can't stop.For one reason, I'm afraid to be hit...My dad has hit me mutiple times before and I haven't change. Isn't that weird? I dont understand how I get hurt by my father because of lying and still continue to not tell the truth.What the fuck is wrong with me.....Its twisted and I hate how they have to bring fucking god and religion into it.I know that I deserve punishment But I cant help and wonder do I deserve to be abused by words and hands? Last time I lied, was today, I lied about eating a candy bar.....Of course since I'm the only child, im only lying to myself....They know Im dealing with an eating disorder but they cant seem to face it....I don't know what to do?I dont know how to stop lying.I'm ruining my parents life.I'm ruining my own life.

Dear Pinocchio, It seems that the reason why your lying might be because it is a defense mechanism. Which is totally normal because everyone does it at some point of their lives, if a crazy person comes bursting through your door and is asking for a knife. I'm pretty sure that you'll tell them that there isn't any in sight. When you might have a kitchen drawer full of them. Defense mechanisms are behaviors that we do when we are feeling threatened by an external force (person, animal, environment, etc.). I theorize that you have been using lying or telling fake stories because you do not feel comfortable being yourself - so you are constantly feeling threatened by everything. Telling the truth is exposing yourself to getting hurt, which could be getting reprimanded by your parent or not being accepted by your peers and so on... I think that you should work on telling small truths first. For example, if someone asks you "did you watch that show last night" , just practice on responding honestly like "no, i actually didnt. could you tell me what happened?" and you'll see that the more you practice on telling your truths the easier it becomes. Start small and work up the courage for the bigger things after a while it is greatly empowering and you will see that it gets easier. It all starts with being comfortable with yourself; which could be a hard tasks to do because I know that dealing with an eating disorder comes with a lot of low self-esteem and self hate. The eating disorder itself can be a symptom of low self-esteem. In regards to your parents not understanding you, I do understand how that feels and it sucks because this is the time that you probably need their guidance the most and they seem unreachable. Sometimes parents aren't perfect and they don't do the right thing because honestly they don't know and what they don't know scares them. They are suppose to be a beacon of light and truth and direction and they possibly are scared that they aren't being good parents so they react negatively. So be kind to them and be kind to yourself most of all Pinocchio. You do not deserve punishment, you deserve love, patience and compassion. If you feel comfortable enough, I would try to have a conversation with your parents and explain to them that you need them and that your struggling with an eating disorder and that you genuinely need help understanding how to get better. If you don't feel comfortable I would reach out to your school and talk to a counselor. They can assist you in finding ways to cope with your disorder and how to find comfortable ways to voice your truths. Just remember that you are worthy of love and you are important and you matter. Life is difficult and it requires a lot of work and effort to become the people who we need to be. Just take it one step at a time. GOOD LUCK !!!!

Dear Pinocchio, It seems that the reason why your lying might be because it is a defense mechanism. Which is totally normal because everyone does it at some point of their lives, if a crazy person comes bursting through your door and is asking for a knife. I'm pretty sure that you'll tell them that there isn't any in sight. When you might have a kitchen drawer full of them. Defense mechanisms are behaviors that we do when we are feeling threatened by an external force (person, animal, environment, etc.). I theorize that you have been using lying or telling fake stories because you do not feel comfortable being yourself - so you are constantly feeling threatened by everything. Telling the truth is exposing yourself to getting hurt, which could be getting reprimanded by your parent or not being accepted by your peers and so on... I think that you should work on telling small truths first. For example, if someone asks you "did you watch that show last night" , just practice on responding honestly like "no, i actually didnt. could you tell me what happened?" and you'll see that the more you practice on telling your truths the easier it becomes. Start small and work up the courage for the bigger things after a while it is greatly empowering and you will see that it gets easier. It all starts with being comfortable with yourself; which could be a hard tasks to do because I know that dealing with an eating disorder comes with a lot of low self-esteem and self hate. The eating disorder itself can be a symptom of low self-esteem.In regards to your parents not understanding you, I do understand how that feels and it sucks because this is the time that you probably need their guidance the most and they seem unreachable. Sometimes parents aren't perfect and they don't do the right thing because honestly they don't know and what they don't know scares them. They are suppose to be a beacon of light and truth and direction and they possibly are scared that they aren't being good parents so they react negatively. So be kind to them and be kind to yourself most of all Pinocchio. You do not deserve punishment, you deserve love, patience and compassion. If you feel comfortable enough, I would try to have a conversation with your parents and explain to them that you need them and that your struggling with an eating disorder and that you genuinely need help understanding how to get better. If you don't feel comfortable I would reach out to your school and talk to a counselor. They can assist you in finding ways to cope with your disorder and how to find comfortable ways to voice your truths. Just remember that you are worthy of love and you are important and you matter. Life is difficult and it requires a lot of work and effort to become the people who we need to be. Just take it one step at a time. GOOD LUCK !!!!       