" All the world's a stage and all the men and women merely players " according to Shakespeare . Well to be honest it works for me too . But sometimes I am tired of this pretentious life . I am not being able to accept reality maybe because I don't want to and when your close ones becomes strangers life becomes unbearable ! Instead of motivating they makes fun of the situation and enjoys it !! But I don't understand why me ? What's the use of making fun of me , showing off to me , hurting me !!! I have never done anything to them moreover I separated myself from them . I lost my parents in my childhood . My father was alcoholic and my mother was jealous of me !!! When my mother died my father choose his consort over me ! He spend everything on alcohol and also on his consort and now Im all in debts !!! Why they never thought of me ? I changed 6 schools . I didn't had any friends , I don't know how to trust .One day my father was heavily drunk and wanted to rape me ! I cried silently even hurted myself ! My classmates thought me to be weird never talked to me and I was often bullied ! I failed in my seventh grade and even my teachers hated me . In the year 2016 My father passed away due to cancer . I don't know why but I miss them ! I was a bad daughter also them . I was not good in studies but they never took any care of me !! My mother passed away in 2011 out of heart attack ! My maternal uncle competes with me !!! But now I have changed myself and I play with hearts while Im studying , knowing its wrong but I am playing and will play . Im a mean and play girl now and to be honest , hurting others is healing me !!! Im finding satisfaction while making others suffer and if it is immaturity then Im happy to be immature ! There's nothing called Love , Humanity in this world , everything is fake and every one is pretending !!! But I don't know why I feel guilty sometimes like now and Im feeling a bit relaxed , thankyou so much to vigyaa .