Nick, I'm so sorry for everything I've put you through. I thought I was ready to come back into your life, but I'm not. I know that I can't pick and choose when I decide to spend time with you, and I know I hurt you. I didn't mean it.
I hate the fact that you forgive me unconditionally because I don't deserve it. I wanted to make you happy one day and marry you, but I've realized that you deserve someone better. You need someone stronger, a woman who can give you what you need. I wanted so much for us to work out. I wanted us to leave this place.
Please don't be angry at me for not being around. It isn't your fault. Don't put anything else on hold for me because you deserve so much more than I can give. I love you so much, but that's why I need to let you go.