It's been almost a month and I've known at least 5 personal deaths in which were suicides. I know I don't have the power, but please stop. There's so many more people who are thinking about committing that too. I'm so stressed out. Is it my fault they died? Why are people committing suicides... Please make them stop. I can't deal with it anymore. I can't give in and lash out on everyone. I'm scared I might lash out at someone and make them more depressed. Why is it like this. I don't want people to die. I want time to stop. Please, this is hurting me too. I can't even think about school anymore without that thought slipping in. I don't want this life of being a witness. I don't want it.