I’m considering telling my mom (I’m 14) I cut myself again, last time she shamed me for it but put me to therapy anyways, I can’t figure out how to get out of this loop. Sometimes I’ve started to hear my alarm play over and over in my head but it feels like I am hearing it and sometimes when I am cutting I hear something in my mind that’s saying “push harder” “I need/want blood” “you’re weak” etc. it’s really scary. Idk what’s going on. I was fine like 3 weeks ago. Idk why this is going on but I’m terrified. I don’t feel sad or anything, sometimes anxious, but not sad or mad like that and Idky I feel the urge to do that can someone please explain it to me.
4 months ago
Re: Please help
I used to struggle with depression, although you say you weren’t sad or angry I believe I can give you some advice. If you don’t want to talk to your mom about it I would suggest going to a school counselor or a trusted adult and telling them exactly what you wrote here. It gets better and you are loved ❤️.