I dont like feeling hate for people, but I get so mad whenever I think about my ex boyfriend. I feel I should've noticed, "why would someone 4 years older than me want to date me, a 12 year old? (at the time)" and backed away but I didnt. I wanted to feel love. He was so incredibly pathetic during the relationship, having me listen to him cry over discord and him whining to me about how I expressed love for a fictional character. I'm not saying I was perfect, but I was young and easily influenced in my defense. He took my virginity and I hate myself so much for that. I just want to be free of hate. Please, how can I stop caring?