Aside from living with an abusive alcoholic father and lying to everyone for my entire life, this is the hardest thing in my life. I am 14 years old and have a DD or E cup size. It’s literally the worst thing I have ever dealt with. Bad things come and go, but this is just constantly bad and there is no way out. Most people complain that they are flat and wish they could be larger but I would do anything to be flat. I would sacrifice ever fulfilling any of my biggest dreams just to be flat chested. I cannot wear any of the clothing styles I want to wear because it looks ridiculous. Like the brandy Melville style tops, I could never. I fit into them everywhere else, just not with my stupid huge boobs that make me feel like I am worthless. I went bathing suit shopping today with my mom and I just saw everyone who was flat walking around and going for the bathing suits that I would want to wear but I literally can’t and I just broke down. I told my mom I wanted to leave and I had a mental breakdown in the car. If my boobs being huge isn’t convincing you of my problem enough then this might convince you. All the styles now show cleavage, including in bathing suits. And I would show cleavage but I can’t. I am very pale and have severe and huge bright red stretch marks all over my breasts therefore I cannot show them. It seriously sucks. My mom doesn’t get it. She is a D cup and hates them as well but when she was my age she was normal and had nothing. It’s not fair. She also is tan and has no stretch marks or veins on them. All I want is to be normal, I’m sick of taping them and using ace bandage. In the winter it is easy because I can just hide in my huge sweatshirts and use tape so I look flat, but I am beginning to hate summer. I love swimming and the beach and everything about summer honestly. But my boobs will not stop growing, they have grown at least one cup size every year since 5th grade which has lead me to count the days down to summers end. I don’t like school either so basically I’m miserable counting down to more misery. I would never harm myself but if anything would make me, it would be this. I don’t know if anybody read this but if you did, please respond with any advice you have for me. If I was given one wish, it would be to be completely flat. It honestly just makes me miserable. I can’t even look in a mirror anymore. I can’t even look down at myself without tearing up. I just want to know what I did wrong in my life. I’m nice to everyone and I would like to think of myself as a good person but I’m stuck with an awful life and an even worse body. It truly isn’t fair.