I am 15 years old. I met this guy whilst I was there with his friends, who I met first, and he said that I was beautiful. He is Syrian and very good looking. We started talking and he said that he was 19 but a few days later it turns out that he was 23. I didnt mind because I liked him so it went on as normal. He is my first kiss and first boy to properly have something with. We were under a bridge that he took me to whilst my best friend and her boyfriend were sat on a bench nearby the entrance. He took me to a ginnel part under the bridge near water. We were kissing and he did finger me (which was consensual ofc). At times, he would try to spin me round and pull my leggings further down to have sex but I kept saying 'no, I don't want to here, look where we are'. I am a virgin so I didn't want my first to be under a bridge🤣. He kept saying 'come on, its fine' and he didn't know that I was a virgin as he never asked me. It kept going on like this for a while, he had a boner and guided my hand to his dick which I was fine with. The main reason I am writing this is because I am confused with what happened to me. He turned me round fast enough to pull my leggings and thong down and put some of his dick in my arse. I had already explained to him no several times before and when he did it hurt alot. I jumped up in pain and said 'no stop'. I pulled my leggings up and when I did, i saw two men walking up to us from a distance. We were behind a short wall so they couldn't see. They told us the gates were locked so we both ran to the other entrance. It was quite late and my best friend was waiting for me at the place where we meet to go home. I didnt see her phone calls as I had no service. When he was walking me to her, he looked annoyed with me as if I should've let him but I didnt say anything as I liked him alot. I didnt tell my best friend about this either. The next few days, he didn't speak to me that much. Now, I have learnt off his 'friend' that he has pending rape charges and a few underage girls had said that him and a few others had raped them under that same tunnel 3 days ago whilst I write this. I felt sick when I heard this. I cried. He's the first guy I have done stuff with and my first kiss. I genuinely trusted him and didnt think he'd do something like this. Ofc, the girls cases are being looked at and they haven't been charged yet but I dont know who to belive. He doesnt know i knwo about this too btw. I searched the definition of rape and what it says is what happened to me, but because I don't see it as bad as what I've heard happened to those girls, I don't want to tell anyone. I don't want mine to seem like I'm mocking real victims. His friends have sexually assaulted me and my best friend in the past (about a month ago or a few weeks) but we don't see that as serious to us either as we have had conversations about that. We met his friends first and then him about a week later. He done this to me just over a week ago and then what I have heard happened to the girls about 3 days ago.

I am 15 years old. I met this guy whilst I was there with his friends, who I met first, and he said that I was beautiful. He is Syrian and very good looking. We started talking and he said that he was 19 but a few days later it turns out that he was 23. I didnt mind because I liked him so it went on as normal. He is my first kiss and first boy to properly have something with. We were under a bridge that he took me to whilst my best friend and her boyfriend were sat on a bench nearby the entrance. He took me to a ginnel part under the bridge near water. We were kissing and he did finger me (which was consensual ofc). At times, he would try to spin me round and pull my leggings further down to have sex but I kept saying 'no, I don't want to here, look where we are'. I am a virgin so I didn't want my first to be under a bridge🤣. He kept saying 'come on, its fine' and he didn't know that I was a virgin as he never asked me. It kept going on like this for a while, he had a boner and guided my hand to his dick which I was fine with. The main reason I am writing this is because I am confused with what happened to me. He turned me round fast enough to pull my leggings and thong down and put some of his dick in my arse. I had already explained to him no several times before and when he did it hurt alot. I jumped up in pain and said 'no stop'. I pulled my leggings up and when I did, i saw two men walking up to us from a distance. We were behind a short wall so they couldn't see. They told us the gates were locked so we both ran to the other entrance. It was quite late and my best friend was waiting for me at the place where we meet to go home. I didnt see her phone calls as I had no service. When he was walking me to her, he looked annoyed with me as if I should've let him but I didnt say anything as I liked him alot. I didnt tell my best friend about this either. The next few days, he didn't speak to me that much. Now, I have learnt off his 'friend' that he has pending rape charges and a few underage girls had said that him and a few others had raped them under that same tunnel 3 days ago whilst I write this. I felt sick when I heard this. I cried. He's the first guy I have done stuff with and my first kiss. I genuinely trusted him and didnt think he'd do something like this. Ofc, the girls cases are being looked at and they haven't been charged yet but I dont know who to belive. He doesnt know i knwo about this too btw. I searched the definition of rape and what it says is what happened to me, but because I don't see it as bad as what I've heard happened to those girls, I don't want to tell anyone. I don't want mine to seem like I'm mocking real victims. His friends have sexually assaulted me and my best friend in the past (about a month ago or a few weeks) but we don't see that as serious to us either as we have had conversations about that. We met his friends first and then him about a week later. He done this to me just over a week ago and then what I have heard happened to the girls about 3 days ago.

Hello, 15 year old. As a girl who is older than you, and has had experience with boys, I can tell you, please, please, please, find other boys to spend your time with. An intimate encounter with a boy should be something that makes you feel respected, is gentle, and consensual. The fact that you said NO, and he was forceful is sooo not okay. This boy, and the others that you mention, are only thinking about themselves, their pleasure, their desires! Intimacy between people is something to be shared, not taken. I can’t imagine how painful it was to be penetrated anally, for the first time, in a forceful manner. You deserve better! If you have access to the internet, which I think you do, look up “healthy human intimacy for teenagers”. Boys don’t necessarily have the best judgment about being with a girl because their hormones are so strong. That being said, a boy who can’t control himself to the point of forcing himself on you is never okay! Girls like to be intimate with a boy, just the same as boys like to be intimate with a girl, but, would you ever think of hurting someone else to get what you want? Again, not cool! Try your best not to let the boys know you don’t want to spend time with them because of this. There are many boys out there who would feel privileged to kiss you, and make you feel special. If you can’t find them where you live, I promise you, they do exist, and one day, you will find one. Another important thing to think about is the danger you are putting yourself in. If this boy, and others, have been sexually active with others, you are at risk. Very serious risk. Sexually transmitted diseases, pregnancy, and emotional scarring are very real, and if I could protect you from those things, I would! You are not doing the wrong thing by liking a boy, and wanting to be intimate with him. Just make sure you do it wisely! Respect yourself to protect yourself! I wish you all the best!!!

Hello, 15 year old.  As a girl who is older than you, and has had experience with boys, I can tell you, please, please, please, find other boys to spend your time with.  An intimate encounter with a boy should be something that makes you feel respected, is gentle, and consensual.  The fact that you said NO, and he was forceful is sooo not okay.  This boy, and the others that you mention, are only thinking about themselves, their pleasure, their desires!   Intimacy between people is something to be shared, not taken.  I can’t imagine how painful it was to be penetrated anally, for the first time, in a forceful manner.  You deserve better!  If you have access to the internet, which I think you do, look up “healthy human intimacy for teenagers”.  Boys don’t necessarily have the best judgment about being with a girl because their hormones are so strong.   That being said, a boy who can’t control himself to the point of forcing himself on you is never okay!   Girls like to be intimate with a boy, just the same as boys like to be intimate with a girl, but, would you ever think of hurting someone else to get what you want?  Again, not cool!   Try your best not to let the boys know you don’t want to spend time with them because of this.  There are many boys out there who would feel privileged to kiss you, and make you feel special.   If you can’t find them where you live, I promise you, they do exist, and one day, you will find one.       Another important thing to think about is the danger you are putting yourself in.  If this boy, and others, have been sexually active with others, you are at risk.  Very serious risk.   Sexually transmitted diseases, pregnancy, and emotional scarring are very real, and if I could protect you from those things, I would!  You are not doing the wrong thing by liking a boy, and wanting to be intimate with him.  Just make sure you do it wisely!   Respect yourself to protect yourself!   I wish you all the best!!! 

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Your reply means alot to me, thank you. I am crying so much right now its actually stupid🤣 I am going to try to help myself because before I never had any like experience of affection really so he kind of made that come out of me which I think made me like him more. Its very disgusting thinking about it now.

Your reply means alot to me, thank you. I am crying so much right now its actually stupid🤣 I am going to try to help myself because before I never had any like experience of affection really so he kind of made that come out of me which I think made me like him more. Its very disgusting thinking about it now.                                                 