My life is hard to explain. The current situation is that my dad is on probation and cannot drink alcohol or he will go to jail. Long story short, my dad has been an alcoholic my entire life and me and my mom were pretty much tortured for years. She finally decided to divorce him 2 years ago which he was clearly not happy about, a few months after that he was dropping me off with my mom (he was beyond drunk) and he did not want to let me go. He had never physically hurt my mom but I know everyone can snap so while he was screaming at her I was just begging her to please go and leave me because she is the best thing I have in my life and I cannot lose her. I also knew I would be fine because since I have lived with my drunk father every night of my life, I know how to work him. Basically I made it out of his car and my dad stumbled out and punched my moms window (this was all in a very public place) and he chased us in the highway in his car. He went to jail after my mom got a restraining order and he violated it a few days later. He was in jail for a couple months, but at 12 years old I was taken out of school due to multiple court summonses where I had to fight for him to not go to jail for years. That leads us to now. If anybody read this, I really appreciate it. I just want to tell somebody about my life. Nobody knows, I lie to everyone and they think I have a perfect life. I can’t take it anymore. I’m nearing the edge if the cliff, I won’t jump but I just want somebody to help me. Can anybody please respond to this, say anything at all. I just need to know somebody is hearing me.