Hi Poofy, Well, just the thought of saying those words make me tremble. I haven’t uttered these words for about ten years now but still my lips felt they were used to saying it. First of all, thank you for greeting me on my birthday. It was also a frist in ten years that you greeted me. Though you did not greet me personally me, you reached out to someone and that someone relayed your message. It was nice to hear from you, it was nice to be remembered by you, it was nice that I crossed your mind even just for a minute or seconds, that’s more than enough for me. Since you left me, you haven’t left my mind and heart. There will always gonna be a space for you there. I remember everything about you, your long lashes that I envy, pink lips that I really miss, the marks on you pretty face, your hands that seem to fit perfectly in mine and your eyes that I fell in love with over and over. And I remember everything about us, and how we used to be. How I used to be when I was with you. I often catch myself thinkingabout what could’ve been. What if we didn’t break up? But reality always hit me back. Fate has lead us here. Me with my husband and you withyour wife. I am truly happy for you and proud of what you’ve become. You were just a boywhen I met you and now you’re a responsible man. I’m not writing this to break any relationship or cause trouble. I’m writing just for the sake of writing. It gives me a sense of freedom when I write, when I make my thoughts into words. It eases the burden in my chest. I just want to express my gratitude for being a part of my life and you still are. Thank you for loving me, being true to me, teaching me a lot of things, your patience, your trust... Also, thank you for reaching out to me when Mama was in a coma. I’ll never forget that moment. I was in a taxi coming from a church going back to the hospital, crying, I felt so alone. But the moment a received your message, I felt I wasn’t alone anymore. Your text messages gave me comfort and hope. You kept me going and I’m so grateful for that. I wish you nothing but the best. I hope you found the love of your life and I hope she gives you all the love that I can’t. You are a good person, always remember that. You deserve to be happy. If only I can give you that happiness...Ich bin bei dir, du seist auch noch so ferne, Du bist mir nah! Die Sonne sinkt, bald leuchten mir die Sterne. O wärst du da!