I am an honor student and I always strive for taking the top since my school offers a scholarship if you're able to do so.
I want to help my parents pay off my tuition by at least getting a discount of it...
But my striving reaches the point where I start to despise other competitors... I started being competitive AND I SO WANT TO REMOVE IT FROM MY SYSTEM.
I'm just scared that this trait of mine will destroy me :(
Please give me advice as to how to deal with this :(