My first problem is my violin exam, I have a violin exam soon in a week which is extremely important but I am not prepared enough, and I am super worried that I won’t be able to pass the exam. It’s not a matter of relaxing, as I genuinely am not ready for it.
Moreover, I feel extremely pressured over constant comparison with my younger sister, both by others and by myself. As she is younger, there is more pressure on me to do better than her, which is a burden that I (unnecessarily) put on myself. Others casually compare us, and it is extremely stressful. I have to try to be smarter than her, be skinnier, and it’s so hard...
My younger sister is taking the same exam but is doing much better, even my teacher said that I would likely fail the exam, whilst she would most probably get distinction (the top grade). Our relationship is slowly getting worse.
I feel like i’m really messed up. There’s nothing much wrong with my life, especially considering the current situation with COVID and BLM and how many others have way larger problems than mine. I shouldn’t be feeling so sad and should be more grateful for my life.