Hiii. This is your former friend ><
I'm writing to say, I think I finally got over you. I no longer care whether I get to talk to you :D
I should have recognized some of the warning signs that you exhibited earlier-- such as the screenshots you sent me of other people who called you a "psychopath" or said they wanted to stab you. And lots of other little things scattered throughout our DMs. But, I was really desperate for a friend, and you faked being insecure about yourself so well that it made me comfortable opening up to you about my anxiety/depression. For a time, I truly believed that you were the only person who cared about me and that you mattered more than my family.
After you stopped talking to me, it was very hard >< I stayed up until 3-4 am regularly and started masturbating every 1-2 days instead of every 4-5 days to cope. My head was constantly filled with sarcastic thoughts about myself and others that I would constantly think about posting to Discord, to the point where I couldn't even focus on driving. Only playing chess, fapping, and watching yt videos helped to take the edge off temporarily. I'm better now, and hopefully sending this message will help me find closure.
There has been lots of change in my life because of you. It's hard to admit, but yes, even though you're a crazy bitch and you baited it, I was also acting like a whiny clown >< So I have been trying to change. I have been spending more time doing activities with my family members, including my sister, cousins, and even my dad (who's also a giant clown). I also have way thicker skin and don't care anymore about trying to make everyone like me. I got a part-time job working in a warehouse. Finally, I started seeing a therapist to talk about my problems with. It's not everything, but it's a start.
In case you were curious, here's the pic of you I fapped to: https://www.reddit.com/r/JerkOffToDesiCelebs/comments/hd0ixt/kiara_advani_will_fulfil_all_your_fantasies/ It was after the first time you sent me a heart emoji <3 Don't worry, I only did it a handful of times.
I love you <333 I'll always remember and cherish the time you spent with me. Get help too you insane fuck ~