I’m not a strong person. I’m a pushover, but I’m also very self involved and selfish. Am I too sensitive? I apologize for everything, even when talking to my friends because I might annoy them. I’ve been told by my friends I’m ether too sensitive or let people push me around. I overthink a lot, and I clearly, most certainly, have some kind of mental illness. Sometimes I get random mood swings, and can easily be influenced by things as small as the weather. The only thing that really helps me is daydreaming- it’s an escape for me. I can be however I want- I can have lots of friends, and a girlfriend. I can make up my own characters and play around with them. because of corona I’ve been even more alone than usual (I only talk to one of my friends, and I’m always worried about her leaving me.)the only trauma I’ve ever had in my life was a friend I had in fifth grade who was suicidal. She belittled me, kept terrible company and only hung out around them, so I had to follow them around. She blamed me for all her problems, and then left me. Maybe that’s why I’m afraid everyone will be disappointed in me and leave me.