When I was younger, I was dangerously manic and quite sexual. I mostly lusted for my straight friends, craving what I could never have. I know I probably ruined a particular friendship. I was just 19. I still think of him, even though I don't think I'll ever see him again. His life diverted into a path I can't quite condone, so maybe it's for the best. Regardless, I was a pervert, and it ruined many a social situation.