I don't know if it is worth it. If it is worth living or dying. All I know is I know NOTHING, which is funny in itself. I don't even know if what I just said makes sense or no. I am really blank... my mind is blank... I know it is normal but is it normal to have so many loved ones around you and you still feel blank? You feel something, just something is missing and if you get it, it would be worth everything and it would complete you?