I am tired of "Hi and Hello and How are you". Their familiarity is that of a cramp you get since years. It is chronic but you've resigned yourself to its presence.
I am tired of lacking conversational cues.
I don't realize that if I start getting pulled in, then I will be thrown out with equal violence. Because it is the worst to assume someone likes you just the way you like them.
I am tired of people who don't come clean unless I investigate them, of convenient slip ups and lapses of memory. Excuses, excuses.
Is authenticity even a thing anymore?