I love my husband. I wish that was all I had to say. I love him and I will never leave him. I don’t even want to. Just sometimes I want to run.
But I can’t help but think of R. R has been my crush for years. Its gotten worse since my husband and I stopped having sex.
It hurts so bad not being touched of desired. Health and stress took intimacy away.
Now I have these fantasies of R. The last person I should crush on. But the fantasy seems so real at times. I want him so badly. But I am unattainable. He is unattainable. Just fantasy.
I am lost. I am hurt. I am lonely. I am scared.
But no one has a clue.