I have written so much on here but, just for clarification (because my mental health is fully deteriorating), is this classed of rape. I feel as though this is having a much worse toll on me than if it was the full thing as my brain is split into two parts where I'm blaming myself and calling myself an overreactor and liar, whereas the other side is giving me straight up answers and making me replay the event saying 'it clearly is as you said no over 20 times. I've tried searching for so many answer, and this is the only source which can actually provide them. I'm 15. He penetrated me anally only once as I got off him and at that time, he had cummed onto the floor behind. It was under a tunnel where we both stood up. At the time, I didnt actually realise what I know believe it is and was so clueless. It happened about 2 months ago. I was saying no and pushing him away, but after each time of saying that, he went back to consensually kissing me - I must've have felt like he wouldn't do it after each no I said. The definition of rape includes what I went through. Can somebody please answer me. It hasn't left my mind since I realised what he done, and has affected me daily. I cant breath when I hear his name or anything to do with him.